Busy, trying.

I want to get back to being busy.  Busy to the point that I won’t have any idle time. Before they told me that it was a good way to escape reality – but isn’t being occupied is actually working presently. And should it be not labeled as a way of escaping? I wouldn’t know. It just feels really good to be working my ass off. It’s self satisfying, to be able to finish a lot of things by the end of the day. I feel like I’m making use of my life. And it’s a good gloom buster.

For my lover, it’s a different story, my lover is going through just so much pressure. I hope my sweet heart hangs on.  My baby seem not happy with all the stress (s)he is going through. I don’t blame her. It’s not actually her dream job- what she is busting her ass on. But it’s something.

I want to be rich. I want to be filthy rich in the future, almost to the point that I could buy Whale’s soul and hunt her. Bitter as it may sound, I’m still very upset with her. I still haven’t forgiven her. I could never will- probably. I do feel a pinch of pity for her. When she gets old, I often wonder who would take care of her. I hope she is saving enough money for a good home for the aged facility. I want her to get old here in the Philippines though.

Enough about that, There are far better topics to talk about in the evening other than my hatred and unforgiving nature towards that unprofessional teacher.

I bought a book today, Jarhead by Anthony Swofford. I might read right after I read my Of Love and Other Demons by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. And then my baby, gave me another Marquez book for an advance Birthday present. I sort of asked for it, I suggested it because it was on sale and I don’t think I’ll be able to afford it or maybe I could but I would much rather spend my money now with the sale still on than on November.

I suddenly feel like reading my book. I have this feeling of wanting to finish it right away so I’ll know what will happen in the end and at the same time anxious and not really want to end the story and would want to just go through it page by page enjoying every effect of each word on myself. For now… I want to read. CIAO.